What do you do when you feel you don't deserve anything of what you have? Is there a chemical solution to this feelings, are they normal, natural?
Maybe it's a form of mild chronic depression, yes, it's not he first time I've felt like this, it usually comes accompanied with a sense of overall ugliness, it would be a very neat trick to feel worthless and handsome. I've heard or read all the explanations before, that it's something everyone feels, that it's just a case of a distorted body image, etc. None of that makes up for the realty... this is the way I feel, and it sucks.
I could be that I've been so pampered that anything short of a resounding and utterly undeniable success brings me down, it could be I have other problems... maybe I need therapy or maybe just grow a pair and take life as it comes. Do my best and to hell with the consequences.
If it only were so easy...
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