The color of the sky, tough now its suck a dark hue that it looks more black than anything else, summer is here and with it the rains that come with the passage of tropical storms.
I guess it's adequate that it's also the color more associated with depression.
It's been a good long time since I've felt really happy, since I had a good all out laugh, I spend most of time now felling inadequate, slow, dumb... It just doesn't matter how many things I get right, or how much success I attain, it seams that for every one of those, a dark cloud gets added on the horizon.
My leg got hurt, again, It's not that I resent my body falling me as I get older, I understand that, what gets me is that I got hurt on a bad decision, again, trying to fit in trying to ignore the fact that I've failed to shut my mouth and eat right. Now I've paid the price of denial.
I'll keep using this blog to vent, that's it only function, now with my latest track record, someone I don't want to will find it, one day I'll add it to my increasing list of poor choices...
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